maybe - maybe not

i had my nephew for the weekend. my sister and most of her family went to texas for the weekend. her daughter had a dive meet. she came in 8th out of 23 - yeah A! we watched one of her boys for the weekend. he is 1 1/2 years old. my kids were very excited to have him come to our house for the weekend. this could have been because it meant that each of them got to sleep on the air mattress for one night, but i think they just liked having a little one around.

my kids love smaller children. they do great with helping me get things like diapers, pacifiers, and glow worms. they sit in amazement as they watch him eat, play ball, or colors. in the mornings, they could NOT wait for him to wake up.

"Mommy, i think i heard T move."

"Mommy, i think i heard T talk."

"Mommy, i think i heard T say he wants "up"!"

"relax kids, he'll be up soon."

he goes to bed right before they do. as i said before, they slept in one room. my son slept in his bed one night and my daughter on the air mattress and then they switched. i've never heard so much giggling and talking. i allowed some of it because it was cute to hear them giggle. i want them to remember some of these special times.

when i thought about having a 1 1/2 year old in my house for the weekend, i thought i would be crazier than it was. now granted, T is a very, very good boy. he never once threw a fit. he ate whatever i put in front of him. he took nice 2 hour naps. when you laid him down for bed (at 6-6:30 p.m.), he is out within 5 minutes. he didn't care for television, he just kind of liked to walk around and play with the balls we had. he was a great kid and the kids loved having him around for the weekend. my son said he was going to miss T when he had to go home.

with this "perfect" little weekend with T, it got me wondering, "do i want another little baby?" this was a lot easier than i thought it was going to be, not that i thought i would be hard. i guess it was a lot easier than it could have been.

i came to the conclusion - "ummm, no. after this weekend if i didn't want another baby, i do not know what would make me want another one right now." don't get me wrong, if God blessed us with an unexpected pregnancy or hopefully the adoption we hope to do later one, we will be excited and know we are blessed beyond measure. for right now, we are happy with God has given us.